The school bell rang, I ran in a hurry to enter the
classroom. when I run I accidentally hit a guy, my classmate named Ben. ben
is the idol of the girls in my school, especially the younger classes. when
it hit him, and I fell and he held out his hand for me to stand up. at the
moment I saw his eyes, we come face to face and at that point there is another
feeling between me and ben.
Ben can never tell with my feelings, in front of the ben I always act like such
a friend. as group work in class I and ben always in the same group, it
makes me happy because it was me and him are together. I do not ever show that i love her because I know he is the idol of the younger classes.
On Sunday, Ben
suddenly called me I answer the phone very nervous. he told me to go with
him to buy the book at gramedia. I went with him, the way Ben always makes
me laugh, he told the funny things about themselves and about others. I
felt comfortable at his side.
Arrived at gramedia, Ben immediately looking for a book he wanted he went in a
hurry and I'm behind her. nearly ten minutes I wandered alone in the
gramedia. Suddenly, Ben surprised me from behind, he patted my shoulder. I
was surprised. Ben laughed when he saw me surprised. at the moment I
saw her laugh was very pleased.
After bought the book, Ben asked me to accompany him to dinner at the
restaurant sugeban. at first I refused, I told him that I was not hungry. But
he did not believe and he forced me to keep going with it, she held my hand and
pulled. Ben held my hand when my heart was beating very fast. I
think, if Ben had the same feeling with me?
The dinner was held, I was dealing with her eating. I was very embarrassed
to eat in front of me nervous, and I behave in front of him when I did not want
Ben to know that I love it. Ben glanced at me and then I feel like flying. I
feel it's like to have dinner with a date.
I think "does he think
so?"
The next day, in the afternoon spend my time in the cafe while online . I opened my twitter.
and not accidental on my
account timeline, I see ben sent a tweet to a woman, she says "happy 1st
anniversary honey." I was shocked, I immediately know who she was looking
for me to open her profile and read all the tweets from ben, ben many
calls of affection from him. I'm still not sure if the woman is her
boyfriend Ben.. I immediately came home and cried in the room. Ben asked me the next day at school to go to the cafeteria together. I could not refuse his offerdespite the fact that much for me to get close to him again.
Arriving in the cafeteria, I buy french fries and it turns out I forgot to
bring money. He offers her money to me, he opened his wallet to take the
money and I accidentally saw a photo of Ben with her on twitter. it was
obvious that she was his girlfriend ben. broke my heart I can not say at
all that I do is pretend to cheer in front of Ben. in class I do not want
to show that I'm heartbroken by this fact. but when at home I can not stop
crying. When I eat I always pictured herself in front of me. I just wish
it could happen again. I can not stand without you.
